Taking Drastic Measures

Betsy is pulling out her greatest weapon. She’s ready to beat the living crap out of anxiety and depression by all means possible. At this rate, Betsy might start a positive vibes only gang. Will you join her?

Webcomic made with Procreate


It ain’t easy living with anxiety and depression. It sucks. Recently, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with moments that, logically, I know I can’t control. But, my heart feels like I can be in control. And while some things may feel like there’s no hope at the end of the tunnel, I’m holding onto the notion that there’s a silver lining after everything else is said and done. Sometimes, I ask myself if what I’m doing is enough. And moments of feeling that I need to give 100% everyday when, energetically speaking, feels like I’m not meeting the quota. Having those talks in trying to convince myself that I’m doing what I can feels like a never ending battle of the heart and mind.

What’s been helping me as of late is writing out my thoughts more via my journal on what I’ve been feeling grateful for and putting in my prayer requests. It allows me to be honest when I’m writing out my day and what I would like to accomplish in my waking life. And perhaps hoping that the Universe would give me a sign (no brain, please don’t resort to the Britney Spears song 🤦🏻‍♀️)

I guess my prayers have been answered when a ladybug landed on me last night while I was writing in my journal! Here she is, roaming around my Kindle and iPad Pro. I remember hearing a *plop* sound when she landed on my desk 😂 I was so concerned that she was dead upon arrival. Thankfully, I saw movement when she moved around my desk.

We decided to set her free by having her go back outside. As much as I wished I could’ve kept her, it was the right thing to let her go back home to where she came from. My husband said that it’s a good sign for things to come.

I guess, in every sense of the word, the ladybug was the positive vibes that landed on me unexpectedly. And perhaps a good reminder that I have the power to do better for myself.

Namaste,

Diana

Having a support system to overcome the bad moments

Betsy understands that her family helps her get through the hard times. She’s misunderstood by others. But Mister & Missy appreciates her unique nature. Betsy is comfortable in sharing her thoughts without feeling judged or ridiculed.


Having a support system goes a long way. To me, I’m grateful for my close family members and friends who have been there for me since Day 1. Being an artist, I sometimes feel that the illustrations I make do not fit in the cookie cutter mould on how art should look like.

But, that’s the beauty about artwork. There’s no limitations to your creativity. Being reminded about my happiness in creating my Betsy illustrations after my last post made me feel reassured that my heart is in the right place.

I don’t have the answers on what an artist should and should not do in terms of their creativity. But what I can share is that it’s so important to find a support system that will build you up, provide honest feedback and cheer you on even through your darkest moments.

We all need love and encouragement. There’s no reason for us to place ourselves in a toxic circle who would constantly hate on our work when deep down inside, their insecurities show through their actions and beyond the surface.

Understandably, not many of us have the luxury on having a support system immediately at the beginning of their creative inception. But, do know that you have others out there (including myself) who believes in your work. There are others who will support your quirks, your witty captions, etc.

Out of the sea of negativity that I’ve seen on social media, there are a few good positive accounts that shine brightly. In the midst of the tragedy, bullying and gaslighting, I’m grateful for seeing others putting on a brave face while posting inspirational work.

I’m still struggling in maintaining my upbeat nature. But I’m glad that I have others who I can lean on and my faith to get me by through the rough patches.

Namaste,

Diana


If you happen to like my work, a simple donation is greatly appreciated. Every share, comment and like on my posts really helps me out. I love connecting with y’all and I hope these posts provide inspiration and humour to your day 🐮

Floating above the negativity

Happy Friday, friends 👋 I hope the month of May has been treating you well 😊

Today, I wanted to share my new piece that started off traditionally and ended up making the edits via Procreate. I really love capturing Betsy’s expression while holding a balloon 🎈

My husband asked me what was my obsession in drawing Betsy holding balloons 😅 The truth is, I was once afraid of balloons growing up. And clowns 🤡 I think it was because I saw Stephen King’s It movie that made me afraid of them while growing up 😟

Over time, I decided to grow out of that fear and finally embraced them. Perhaps by drawing Betsy holding a balloon symbolises my way of compromising my brain and learning to let go of my childhood fear.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been feeling more down as of late. As May is coming to a close and on the topic of Mental Health Awareness, I wanted to share how I’ve been feeling.

To begin with, I’ve had some doubts on my ability to maintain my sanity while being a decent human being. There were some moments that I felt out of place and often question myself Why am I doing this? On top of working full time, I’ve had some moments where I just felt tired and giving up 😓 Sometimes, those panic attacks creep in and trying to ruin my groove. Often, I would have to take breaks in settling myself to the best of my ability.

It’s also not fun hearing my thoughts with phrases like:

You don’t deserve happiness.

Your coworkers think you’re weird and stupid.

You don’t have any friends because you’re a horrible person.

I’m surprised you’re a mom and wife with the way you are.

You’re fat and ugly.

Your family tolerates you but they secretly hate you.

…and the list goes on.

For me, the idea of “floating above the negativity” is my way of reassuring myself that I do have the ability in rising above from toxic people, thoughts and situations. Is it easy to do so? Not really. But, I do my best in keeping things in stride when proceeding to higher ground than where I was originally at in the first place. It’s a balancing act.

How do you rise above the negativity? 🤔 Would love to hear your thoughts 💭

Namaste,

Diana