Taking Drastic Measures

Betsy is pulling out her greatest weapon. She’s ready to beat the living crap out of anxiety and depression by all means possible. At this rate, Betsy might start a positive vibes only gang. Will you join her?

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It ain’t easy living with anxiety and depression. It sucks. Recently, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with moments that, logically, I know I can’t control. But, my heart feels like I can be in control. And while some things may feel like there’s no hope at the end of the tunnel, I’m holding onto the notion that there’s a silver lining after everything else is said and done. Sometimes, I ask myself if what I’m doing is enough. And moments of feeling that I need to give 100% everyday when, energetically speaking, feels like I’m not meeting the quota. Having those talks in trying to convince myself that I’m doing what I can feels like a never ending battle of the heart and mind.

What’s been helping me as of late is writing out my thoughts more via my journal on what I’ve been feeling grateful for and putting in my prayer requests. It allows me to be honest when I’m writing out my day and what I would like to accomplish in my waking life. And perhaps hoping that the Universe would give me a sign (no brain, please don’t resort to the Britney Spears song 🤦🏻‍♀️)

I guess my prayers have been answered when a ladybug landed on me last night while I was writing in my journal! Here she is, roaming around my Kindle and iPad Pro. I remember hearing a *plop* sound when she landed on my desk 😂 I was so concerned that she was dead upon arrival. Thankfully, I saw movement when she moved around my desk.

We decided to set her free by having her go back outside. As much as I wished I could’ve kept her, it was the right thing to let her go back home to where she came from. My husband said that it’s a good sign for things to come.

I guess, in every sense of the word, the ladybug was the positive vibes that landed on me unexpectedly. And perhaps a good reminder that I have the power to do better for myself.

Namaste,

Diana

Halloween 2019

Hello, friends! Today is Halloween (Samhain) and I couldn’t be more excited to celebrate the holiday. Here is Betsy riding on a broom with her pumpkin candy bucket, ready for trick-or-treating! She’s been looking forward to this day 🎃

Despite the wonky weather here in NYC, there’s an undeniable sense of witchy wonder in the air. Even with the mixture of rain and fallen leaves on the ground, I’m reminded of the autumn cycle and its nearing inception of when the veil is at the thinnest between the spirits and humans in this waking life. To me, Samhain is a celebration of life and death. The old and the new. The ability to commune with the spirits who walk among us. I’m reminded of my loved ones / friends who have passed away. As it is a bittersweet occasion, I’m thankful for what they provided during the time they were alive on Earth.

Shop Update

Many thanks to those who checked out my handmade shop! It’s now closed. However, my apparel shop is still open for those who want to purchase my teeshirts and other fun accessories. I’ve added some new designs in the shop. Be sure to check them out! As a reminder, you can get free shipping on your order (USA residents only) by entering my promo code LOTUSCOW.

 

Halloween 2019 Tarot Reading

It wouldn’t be fair for Betsy to keep the post short. After all, she is our resident witchy cow 🐮 She pulled out some tarot cards and wanted to share her message with y’all.

Cards that were pulled

6 of Wands, 5 of Wands, 5 of Swords and 4 of Cups.

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Smith-Waite Centennial Tarot.

Betsy’s message to everyone

We all want to be rightfully recognized for our work and ambitions. But some of us have their egos front and center for all of the world to see. Overshadowing those who worked hard to get where they’re at in their careers, relationships and their personal goals. It’s noted that there will be plenty of push and pull with members of authority. Even some of your peers might doubt your ability to move forward. And while you may be feeling reluctant to step into the spotlight due to the politics, you really need to take a sip of courage and find yourself in the midst of chaos. Be part of the ebb and flow that will require plenty of finesse and calculations. Change happens when you take action. Always be one step ahead. Know when to choose your battles. Your future self will thank you.


What are your plans for Halloween? Leave me a note in the comments section below! If you happen to enjoy my post, a simple donation is appreciated.

Namaste,
Diana

Having a support system to overcome the bad moments

Betsy understands that her family helps her get through the hard times. She’s misunderstood by others. But Mister & Missy appreciates her unique nature. Betsy is comfortable in sharing her thoughts without feeling judged or ridiculed.


Having a support system goes a long way. To me, I’m grateful for my close family members and friends who have been there for me since Day 1. Being an artist, I sometimes feel that the illustrations I make do not fit in the cookie cutter mould on how art should look like.

But, that’s the beauty about artwork. There’s no limitations to your creativity. Being reminded about my happiness in creating my Betsy illustrations after my last post made me feel reassured that my heart is in the right place.

I don’t have the answers on what an artist should and should not do in terms of their creativity. But what I can share is that it’s so important to find a support system that will build you up, provide honest feedback and cheer you on even through your darkest moments.

We all need love and encouragement. There’s no reason for us to place ourselves in a toxic circle who would constantly hate on our work when deep down inside, their insecurities show through their actions and beyond the surface.

Understandably, not many of us have the luxury on having a support system immediately at the beginning of their creative inception. But, do know that you have others out there (including myself) who believes in your work. There are others who will support your quirks, your witty captions, etc.

Out of the sea of negativity that I’ve seen on social media, there are a few good positive accounts that shine brightly. In the midst of the tragedy, bullying and gaslighting, I’m grateful for seeing others putting on a brave face while posting inspirational work.

I’m still struggling in maintaining my upbeat nature. But I’m glad that I have others who I can lean on and my faith to get me by through the rough patches.

Namaste,

Diana


If you happen to like my work, a simple donation is greatly appreciated. Every share, comment and like on my posts really helps me out. I love connecting with y’all and I hope these posts provide inspiration and humour to your day 🐮

Hello anxiety, my old friend

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Having anxiety and depression sucks. 

For the past two weeks, I’ve been experiencing stomach pains and fatigue. Not to sound like a pessimist, but I sometimes wish I wasn’t so tired. Staying in bed and playing Nintendo Switch helped me cope over the weekend. But I can’t do that forever. 

The thing is, having depression makes me feel tired to the point of not pursuing my passion projects. Add anxiety on top of it and I end up with an unsavoury cocktail of emotions and pain. As a working mother, I struggle with balancing my own health, making sure my kid is healthy, trying to excel at my job and having food on the table. 

I’m not here to garner sympathy from others. I’m just stating the reality of my life. It really sucks feeling this way. Sadly, we’re taught to keep our mouth shut about our mental health, especially to mothers. I’m not going to keep quiet about how I feel.

My old friend anxiety told me in my mind that there was no point in having social media. That I’m wasting my time doing all of this for nothing. Sadly, I believed what it told me. So, I ended up deactivating my Instagram and Facebook accounts, without explanation. I can faintly hear the hissing of agreement from anxiety, as I proceeded with the final confirmation of my deactivation.  

The next day, my husband and close friends asked me why I deactivated the accounts. I didn’t have the right words to say, other than the fact that I was tired of seeing curated images from others online who seem to have their shit together. As much as I’ve learned that the curated images are actually from humans with actual feelings who aren’t perfect – in my mind, I felt that my content wasn’t up to par with others. That no matter how I’m able to post the perfect hashtags to get visibility, it just didn’t feel enough. 

What I said above may sound silly. And you’re right. After writing out my actual thoughts about how I view social media as a whole, I’ve come to the conclusion that I ended up dwelling on something that shouldn’t have bothered me in the first place. 

So in every sense, this post is an apology letter to those who wondered what happened to my social media accounts. As of now, it’s been reactivated.

I was reminded by my husband on one simple factor – “Just focus on creating Betsy. Don’t worry about visibility or those hashtag things. Your enjoyment comes first.”

And I’ll keep doing so. 

Many thanks to those who reached out and checked up on my well being. Means a lot 💕 if you want to support my work, my handmade shop is still open. You can also check out my apparel. If you’re feeling generous, a simple donation is appreciated.

Namaste,
Diana

Shop is now live! Plus, a special surprise.

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After a long wait, it’s finally here! My handmade shop is now live at Red Lotus Designz.

I’m really excited to share my handmade jewelry and accessory pieces with Betsy. I do hope you check them out! I’ve also included a special made-to-order section for those who are interested in the following pair of earrings:

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But..that’s not the special surprise that I’ve mentioned earlier on social media.

I’m proud to announce that I’ve also opened up my apparel shop via Teespring! As an added bonus, you can use the code LOTUSCOW to get free shipping (only valid for members in the United States).

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Hope you’re having a lovely Full Moon in Aries! Let me know which design is your favorite!

Namaste,
Diana

New jewelry designs and an official launch date

Hi friends! Been a while since my last post. I’ve been busy making the jewelry & accessories. I’m happy to announce the official launch date will be on the Full Moon in Aries (October 13, 2019) around 2 – 3 PM (EST). It will be made available directly at RedLotusDesignz.com.

The designs have a pink background along with Betsy’s image. For the earrings, they’re paired with a gem bead. All of the pieces are handmade. Expect some slight imperfections, but each piece is unique in its own way. Like Betsy! 🐮

Here’s a sneak peak on some of the designs:

There will also be a special surprise on that day as well, so be sure to stay tuned for the news on October 13, 2019. If you’re not a subscriber to my blog, what are you waiting for? 😃

Namaste,

Diana

Witchy Cow

Happy first day of Autumn / Mabon! My witchy heart feels more alive during this time of year. Seeing the leaves on the ground with the crisp and cool air makes me feel nostalgic.  Betsy is looking forward to posting more tarot card readings on Instagram and Twitter now that we have more time in the day to focus on channeling our messages from the Universe.

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For a long time, I always felt that my plush animal cow was a familiar. It’s currently not viable for me to adopt a cat (although I took care of them while growing up). Mostly due to the heart ache that I’ve felt years ago when I lost my beloved childhood pet to cancer. My husband and I found Betsy during our local trip to the mall (which you can interact from the first episode of Moo Times of Betsy here). Recently, I encountered this post that lovingly explains that yes, it is possible to do so.

Most of my work involves healing, protection and boosting creativity. In a nutshell, I’m an arts, crafts and tech bruja. Additionally, I would channel the motherly and sassy energy from Betsy to the readings that I provide for my friends and family members. My husband jokes that Betsy has a mind of her own whenever we have her sitting on top of the other plush animal cows. On certain days, Betsy would tip over (even if she was sitting up perfectly). I recently got a palmistry pillow from Michael’s Craft Store for Betsy to prop herself up when we share the daily tarot card readings on the Instagram account.

The good news is that there’s no slowing down for Betsy as she’s eager to do more witchy work. Samhain will be here soon before you know it. Now, if only I can loom knit a witch’s hat for Betsy to wear…

Hope you’re having a magickal time, my friends. I’ll see you on my next post!

Namaste,
Diana